Grey concrete walls. Tall, arched windows make me think of an old, beautiful train station. Through the windows I see: a man wearing headphones, a piano. In front of the windows: four or so tables on a row, each with a chair as if it was a school or maybe, a waiting room. On the back wall next to the windows: chalk lines, one two three four and five, like in a prison or as part of a game. To the right: a door with a glass window, bright light shining through. To the left: a monitor showing surveillance footage of the space (again: train station). Beneath: a table, a chair, a woman with long dark hair sitting with her back turned to us. On the table next to her, office props: a yellow telephone, a water dispenser, two drinking glasses.
Waiting as a way of searching
Trying
Trying again
Failing
Trying again
making an effort!
Failing
Tryingagain
Trying hard to find pleasure in failing
Waiting
Waiting for it to feel right.
Waiting as a way of wasting time
Waiting without knowing for what
for time to pass?
for the game to begin?
for it to be your turn?
(An image of time: a woman sitting on the edge
of a table, legs moving from side to side like a
pendulum, tick tock tick tock)
Waiting for the door to open
for the light to enter
Waiting for someone to start dancing
for someone to share a dance with you
Waiting as a way of knowing silence
Waiting for the phone to ring
for the call
the message
Waiting to know for certain
to be hit by the pain
the pain
Waiting for it to stop
the pain
Waiting for it to be enough (is it enough now?)
Waiting for the exhaustion
Waiting to give up
to stop
to collapse
Waiting for the silver lining
for the music to start
for the tears to come
energy to return
Waiting for a smile to arrive in both of your faces
Waiting for each other
Waiting as mirror and repetition
Waiting for someone to see you
for you to become
visible
Waiting for your picture to be taken
for a silence to be broken
for someone to use their voice
Waiting for change
Waiting to draw a line between waiting and not waiting anymore
Waiting for someone to finally leave you
for a sneeze, that doesn’t come
Waiting to be replaced
to be alone
quiet
Waiting for yourself to arrive
for a memory to return
Waiting for pleasure
connection
Waiting to be carried away
desired
conquered
mastered
to fall
Waiting to fall out of love, again
the repetition
Waiting to say it
to be caught, revealed
humiliated
yelled at
trashed
Waiting to die
(An image of death: a woman lying on her back
in a black dress on a long, black table being
carried by four people)
Waiting to be able to do the right thing
Waiting because there is nothing else to do
Waiting for someone to stop waiting for you
for them to let you go
Waiting as if it was a prayer
Waiting to find freedom in a place that is brand new
Waiting to feel ready
to be brave enough
to join the dance
Waiting to be together about it
to be synchronized
synergetic
Waiting to dare
to move
jump
shake
run
kick
Waiting to live, more
Waiting for you to allow yourself to laugh
Waiting as an action
holding someone’s hand, hair, head, body
moving
and being moved
inhabiting time and space together.